bow down before the one you serve

i think i am allergic to cigarettes. why you ask? well whenever i smoke, or like smoke alot i get dizzy, nauseous, i feel like im trembling all over but im standing perfectly still, and i throw up. and then hallucinate and pass out. yes i am talking about smoking CIGARETTES. *thinks* i should just stop, but i just started smoking to get me to stop drinking, and i started drinking to get myself to stop cutting and i started cutting to harm myself in anyway possible and ... yeah. im in tech class now so ill be off