take the plan, spin it sideways... without you I'm nothing at all...

haha oh man ok. so i got like an hour and a half sleep last night, i couldtn sleep so i paced around my driveway at two in the morning chain-smoking and talking to myself. the only thing that ive eaten in the last 2 days is half a bowl of noodles my dad force-fed me... i am exstaticly happy, the most optimistic i have been in years, ive beaten alcoholism, drug abuse, and depression... yet im i the most emotional pain i have ever been in my life.

fuck...

true love's a bitch.

my heart is blue, my heart is blue for you.

FUCK!! you know what really cures apathy? a good dose of politics/counter-culture/philosophy... i almost feel like im back to normal

HAZAHH